I want the music to make me cry again, to make me feel something. It has been far to long since I've been moved, since I've heard anything. Perhaps I haven't been listening, perhaps I've closed myself off, perhaps I'm using to many commas.
The last song to move me was from Vincent Gallo which seems to me a strange feat seeing as how self-involved he is as an actor, artist, and musician. I listened to the song "Falling Down Billy Brown," one night in the dark and cried, I can't give any reason why aside from I felt compelled to. It has been sometime.
Maybe I haven't allowed myself to openly cry, maybe I've shut myself off. I'm no longer the man I used to be...for better or worse. Those days of searching, seeking, my future are over, I am who I am.